I realized today that being a mom is not as easy as I thought it would be (and I only have one child so far). I have been praying every day for more patience and I feel like every day I fail. My sweet baby whom everyone used to envy and comment that she was "too easy" is now the one I'm chasing everywhere and strangers are speaking out saying "are you going to have more kids." Is it that obvious that she exhausts me? She has the strongest firecracker personality and never stops whether its running everywhere or getting into every mess you never even thought could be a mess. Yesterday I was so exhausted and needed to sit down for just a second. In the 5 minutes that she did she shocked herself in a light socket, ate the lysol disinfectant wipes from under the sink and started throwing up (poison control) and fell off the couch onto her head. I was so worried and scared to death yesterday that now I know I can't allow myself to take even a small break that I have to be watching her 100% of the time. I was trying so hard to take a shower today and after she got everything out under the sink 3 times, unrolled the whole roll of toilet paper, learned how to climb on top of the toilet and get from there to on top of the sink and whine and cry the whole time while doing it I kinda lost it. I passed up lunch with my friends (which I was dying to get out of the house) put Brinklee in bed for a nap and bawled my eyes out. I don't know what I was thinking that being a mom would be a walk in the park. I remember thinking when she was born "this will be cake, I love this little girl more than anything I could never get mad at her, I will be the perfect mom." I am here confessing that I'm far from perfect and raising a toddler is SO hard! I do love Brinklee more than anything and she brings more joy into my life than I ever imagined possible. I am telling all those people out there (including myself) that when they say they're "just a mom" that they need to correct themselves cuz it requires a lot more credit than that.
14 years ago
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Amen to that! I will tell you though that she is at a tough age. It will get better!!!! Allie is already doing SOO much better, and she was just like that. Their curiosity wont subside, but it will just go towards more productive things. So hold on!! This too shall pass. And, no, I am not perfect!!! My mom helped me with the steristrips, she is a nurse practitioner. So a doctor did kind of do it:).I haven't mailed your crayon holder yet, sorry. I will probably do it on Monday unless I can make it today....sorry!!!! And you are an awesome mom, even if we bawl our eyes out :). I have to take my own "mommy timeouts" :)!!!
You're a great mom!! That was quite the day though haha!
we all feel the same way! some days are better than others... and the good ones make you forget about the bad! so hang in there! but you are a great mother and brinklee loves you... that's all that matters!
Don't worry you aren't a bad mom. Everyone has days like this. Like Shanell said the good days make you gorget the bad. that is so true for you and your kids.
O Court. I'm sorry you have come to the knowledge that I've had for a while. It's a shocker, actually. But what everyone has told you is true...it does get better. And I don't know if this will overwhelm you, but having another kid TOTALLY helps. They just play with each other and true...there are still messes, at least they are keeping busy so you can take a shower.
Just something to think about. :)
Court-She will only be this age once! Treasure these times...I know it's hard, being a Mother is probably the hardest and the greatest thing you will ever do. I think each age brings a diferent trial! Take some time for yourself if you can :) You are a great Mom....love ya! Cristi
Court,
Looks like some great comments already. I remember those days. I remember at my "twins" baby shower that my mom's friend told me that sometimes they will cry, sometimes you will cry, and sometimes you will cry at the same time. It's true. But we wouldn't have it any other way, right? Calvin and Kai are almost 4 and I feel like my life is starting to get a easy... so hang in there. Brinklee is lucky to have a great mom like you, who loves her more than anything. One bit of advice from me is to start taking a shower at night. It has changed my life. No more running out of the shower to find yogurt smeared all over my kitchen floor. Good Luck.
OH MY GOSH. IM CRACKING UP. ITS SO TRUE THOUGH, CHILDREN ARE DIFFICULT. COURT YOU'RE SUCH A GOOD WRITER. YOU NEED TO MAKE A CAREER OUT OF THAT. YOU'RE SO FUNNY. TEAGAN IS THE SAME WAY. I CAN RELATE! LOVE YOU
Court I feel like that all the time. E is getting more mobile and curious and his personality shows more every day. I am already afraid of him :) I can see craziness in his eyes. We'll make it. It's so hard but there is no better job in the world. Love you guys.
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